im coming home....

[lovely]

pretty much made up my mind that this summer....i probably will go back home.

cant stand va....

cant stand my mom...

cant stand the little bit of money that is made here..

cant stand white people...

i miss it there....

so ima start looking for a JOB in that area....

and WHENEVER i find something good...i will be there...i dont care if it is in one day...two weeks...whatever...IM out...

im through here.

:rolleyes:

[que90nek]

...

i always thought your entire reason for going down there was family. have you now decided that THAT is not enough?

[seductive_tee]

Sorry things aren't working out for you.

But i'll keep you posted on the jobs. I'll put them in your PM box if you like.

[nubianx2]

Lovely,
Has your Mom's health improved?

[OhSoPrecious]

I was wondering the same thing, Nubian~!! :cool: Lovely, hope those two "bad sex" knuckle heads ain't running you back home. . .

Good luck, girl!

[zuriyahe]

If you had good sex...would you have stayed?

[Melotic]

Originally posted by zuriyahe+
If you had good sex...would you have stayed?

That's foul, dude...

[HulaSista]

did you tell your mom? your sisters? what do your family have to say? (you always have the most interesting stories by the way)

[lovely]

Originally posted by zuriyahe+
If you had good sex...would you have stayed?

oh i have had good sex in VA z...believe me.

i cant live with my mom...she treats me like a child. and i dont like being treated like a child.

she gets attitudes and wont talk to me....like she did my father.

she yells at my daughter..like she did me and my sisters and my father.

she is ALWAYS right...and i am ALWAYS wrong.

at this moment...in actuality..i dont care what happens to her.

she is never satisfied with what i do. and i dont feel the need to comform to what she thinks i should do or not do...just cause she is so SANCTIMONIOUS (sp).

im tired of being the daughter who runs to take care of her...and i get treated like dirt..cause im not like her.

i dont want to be like her....at all!

[lovely]

Originally posted by HulaSista+
did you tell your mom? your sisters? what do your family have to say? (you always have the most interesting stories by the way)

i havent told anyone...

cept yall....

and her paternal grandma.

and i dont plan on telling anyone until plans are laid and im ready to roll.

[Juicey1]

Good luck Lovely. You have to do what you have to do for YOUR peace of mind.

[zuriyahe]

It is unfortunate when things do not work out between parent and child...but I suppose that first step is realizing that she (your mom) is not likely going to change...since she shows such a history of abusive behaviors.

But miracles happen. Perhaps your mom will turn herself around before it is too late.

But until then, you have to take care of YOUR well being...So best wishes to ya!

[seductive_tee]

Originally posted by lovely+


at this moment...in actuality..i dont care what happens to her.


Those some strong words, i hope you don't live to regret them.

[mystkev]

I know how you feel Lovely, can I come with you?

[lovely]

Originally posted by mystkev+
I know how you feel Lovely, can I come with you?

yeah myst.

we can meet in some central state...(let me look at a map..cause im retarded :rolleyes: ...and dont know any off hand)..... me, you and jasmine.

imagine that :D

[lovely]

Originally posted by seductive_tee+


Those some strong words, i hope you don't live to regret them.

those are very strong words, tee...

and i mean them at this moment.

see...eventually i will get tired of being treated like dirt by folk.

took me four years with my daughter's father...

twenty three with my own father

and 27 with my mom.

eventually i have to start putting my feelings and desires before hers.

now she treats me like nothing is going on between us. but no apology...nothing.

she has done some stupid, childish things....and i cant stand it.

if i was to put some of it out here ya'll would be like :eek:

[HulaSista]

Originally posted by lovely+
now she treats me like nothing is going on between us. but no apology...nothing.


this is the worse feeling...