I Really Got To Figure Out What I Wanna Do

[Pamalicious]

Ok, this is more about just letting off some steam. I've never had a 'career path' I've never really been interested in one - so sue me. I always just wanted to get a job do somethangs and that's it. If I had to say I had one - It would be a teacher.

Anyhoo - I'm going to really have to start pushing myself to start looking at what I want to do with the rest of my life career/job wise and force myself to get the motivation to do something about it. I've gotten complacent and settled but I'm not happy.

Basically as evidenced by the time I have to be on here - I am being paid to monitor a calendar if you ask me. Now based on that job title it's good pay - but I'm not using any of the little skills I think I have nor am I even caring about that. Before it was cool to have a chill job - but I feel my brain shrinking, lol

Not to mention it seems as if this is some kinda important gig and believe you me when I tell you - keeping the calendar can be a full time job with all the emails back and forth checking flights and syncronizing people blah blah blah - this woman is booked until August of next year already!!

I just really got fed up today with the whole Shabang - especially when a person gets snotty about the damn calendar!! I can't pull extra time out my ass and sometimes I'll just not do the calendar because it's BORING - so then I'll get an email - I checked my calendar in January and I didn't see so and so meeting - if you could please try to add things to my calendar in a day or two I'd appreciate it. I add based on timeframe so I'm adding say next week and October and making sure that's squared away.

I see myself slipping into some habits that once again will get me called in about me not following up etc. I've even asked for some more work and this is what my boss told the person who was inquiring (our project manager who I went to saying I was dying over here).

"Her main job is to take care of my calendar and tend to my needs - if she has the bandwidth some light stuff, but always check with me" WTF?!

So anyway - (sigh) I tell yah - I guess I just gotta jump out there - when you a single parent like me (and this isn't necessarily an excuse) any break in yo money etc. or the possibility that there will be has to be calculated, but I need to start looking around - cause at minimum there's got to be something better than this.

[mack_black]

Sooooo...go ahead and be a teacher...you dont have to do k-12..maybe something that you know very well...teach it...evolve it....


but I understand, you just lettin off some steam......

[bsmuvdotcom]

Ok first Pam I think you might need to look at your job from a diffrent angle. From what you briefly described, it sounds like you are an Event Coordinator. This is an excellent and VERY Lucritive if you spin it right. Event Coordinators get paid the big bucks for doing the LITTLE things pompus/ self important people are too busy to do. Be it manage their meeting scheduals, schedualing business travel or who gets the conference room next and who is cartering this weeks box lunch for the pointy head boss. I said all that to say, if you have been at you gig for more then 2 years, you could very well strike out on your own and be an Freelance Event Coordinater.

If this is not the career you are feeling, I would suggest sitting down one night, no distrations with a note book. First write all the things you are not good at and don't want to do for a career. Next write what you are good at and what you want to do for your career. Be brutally honest with youself cause nobody else is going to see this list but you. The last thing you need to do is list out the jobs that require the things you are good at and want to do. There is your career choice. I know it sounds corney but it works, believe me.

[Pamalicious]

Ok first Pam I think you might need to look at your job from a diffrent angle. From what you briefly described, it sounds like you are an Event Coordinator. This is an excellent and VERY Lucritive if you spin it right. Event Coordinators get paid the big bucks for doing the LITTLE things pompus/ self important people are too busy to do. Be it manage their meeting scheduals, schedualing business travel or who gets the conference room next and who is cartering this weeks box lunch for the pointy head boss. I said all that to say, if you have been at you gig for more then 2 years, you could very well strike out on your own and be an Freelance Event Coordinater.

If this is not the career you are feeling, I would suggest sitting down one night, no distrations with a note book. First write all the things you are not good at and don't want to do for a career. Next write what you are good at and what you want to do for your career. Be brutally honest with youself cause nobody else is going to see this list but you. The last thing you need to do is list out the jobs that require the things you are good at and want to do. There is your career choice. I know it sounds corney but it works, believe me.

Quite interesting and I'll be doing this this weekend and I've been at my job SIX YEARS and everytime I do an event be it at home or at the Job folks are like - you should do this for a living. Hmmmmm - Thanks a good exercise and I do like to keep a list, lol

[Pamalicious]

Sooooo...go ahead and be a teacher...you dont have to do k-12..maybe something that you know very well...teach it...evolve it....


but I understand, you just lettin off some steam......

Something for me to do the second part of my life - I'd like to do something else in the meantime.

I'm a people person - this might sound corny but the coolest damn job I ever had was working the front desk for the City of Atlanta's Accounts Payable Divison. Talk about a good job in terms of my personality.

I had so many people in and out all day - I handed out all the contractor checks and met so many fine bros - ok I digress - but you get the drift. I had to dress nice, keep a smile - chit chat and use my gift of gab to calm disgruntled clients down etc. etc.

It was a cool gig but it only paid about $18K a year, lol lol and Ms. Lady was eating that up in one table sitting, lol lol

[bsmuvdotcom]

You do realize there are people that do Event Planning as in:
- Business Travel Planners for small and medium size corporations that don't have a travel agent.
- Wedding Planners
- Amusement Parks bringing in recording arts to perform at special events
- Fund Raisers
- Campiagn Funding Parties
- Rubbermaid Party Hostests
- Amway Reps

Oh wait scratch those last two :upto:

[Tastey]

Pam I feel what you are saying. As we arrive at or approach 40 it's often a time of reflection to see if we are truly happy with the life we have so far.

I've had great JOBS but each one was just that...a JOB. I remember earlier this year when I was on the temp job my aunt asked me if I liked it. I said "As much as I can like any job."

She laughed and said "Your problem is you don't want a job."

I realized she was right. I don't want a JOB. I want a career...a future...something that I can do and enjoy without worrying about office politics or layoffs or rushing through traffic so as not to be a whole minute late.

Since I began writing, I'm happier than I have ever been. I would say money is tight...but truth is...money is almost non existent. My son and I are getting my by the skin of our teeth, literally.

But for the first time in years I am HAPPY. I have time to spend with my son. I'm not stressed at the end of the day. I cook at least 5x a week. I do volunteer work at the church, and I have the work at home gig.

I've completed 2 more manuscripts and have agents looking at my work. Right now finding a JOB is the last thing on my agenda.

I still apply and I'd take one if offered. But my life is in my writing career. My future is in my writing career.

I stepped out on faith and God has taken care of us. We haven't missed a meal, we have roof over our heads, and the power, phone and cable are still on (today anyway) lol

It's a struggle but I've never been more content to struggle with something in my whole life.

Now I don't reccomend being a starving artist like myself. lol But I do reccommend chasing your dream whatever it costs you.

Pray first...take God's lead...and he'll get you through it.

[lovely]

having just turned 30 and being on no serious career path, ive been thinking about this as well. i really dont know what i want to do right now. i enjoy my job...but i need to make more money...lol. i fear that the older i get..the harder it will to be to come by jobs. that if it takes me 10 years to finish school (going pt) then ill be 40 (old) trying to get into a new career..and that can be difficult..as far as finding jobs and crap.

ive been trying to figure this out as well.

[Brightness]

Pam, I understand completely what you are saying from the single parent angle.

Personally, I feel like I 'gave up' and substantially lower my ambitions/goals a lot to be a parent and it's not panning out. I already know to a lot of people that seems mean to say but I'm a realist and I acknowledge all my feelings good or bad.

I think this is why I get so disturbed at what other people view as little bumps in the road of parenting because when I compare those little bumps to how/where I could be but I'm sitting here trying to qualify to win the Mrs. Cleaver Award of Parenting. . .I am less than satisfied.

I have always yearned to stimulate and grow my mind and be logistically challenged in some way. It's why I'm always taking a class of some sort, it's why I'm always writing something, it's why I'm always engaged in something creative.

I think about getting back on the path I was headed in 1989 but I don't know how realistic that would be. Shifting gears is one thing but if it entails me backtracking somewhat then I don't know that that's truly beneficial.

Those are the thoughts I'm weighing in on over the next 3 yrs. as I prepare my daughter's footsteps to travel her path. And although I don't say it, I think: Please dear God don't let her make the mistakes I've made or have her vision clouded or limited by unwise choices. Plus, if I'm gonna stay in her ass. . .I don't need to be embarking on any new, deep shit anyway other than trying to find some ding-a-ling. . .LOL

[mack_black]

Pam.. You ever though about being an author? could be your calling...

[Pamalicious]

Pam.. You ever though about being an author? could be your calling...


It's my calling but it doesn't FEED Yah off the bat. I redid my resume (thanks DNS for some advice a while ago - got it tight now) and I applied for about five jobs yesterday.

I have some things in the works in terms of the writing aspect - but that's a roll it out type plan - not a paycheck in two weeks type plan, lol I get paid sometimes for my writing and (though I dont' mention it anymore) my blog is becoming a source of income as well soon since I have about 100 people a day in traffic, but that's another story -

My BIGGEST hurdle is myself and complacently because I got the flex time I need here to faciliate my daughter and the abundance of vacation days etc. So I have to push myself thru that and keep going - I did this weekend when it dawned on me that alot of jobs won't let me work from 7:30-3:30 - but something gotta give, so I'll just try for real this time - because I never will know if I don't try.